I’m ready to go back to work.
I know that this is not the party line. That I should be grateful for the chance for these weeks of bonding. That this is the critical time in a child’s life and it should be spent at home with the mother. But ya’ll, I’m ready to go back to work.
Being a stay at home mother is WORK. And I still have work at Work. That is way too much work to think about on a daily basis so one of these has to give. And since we need my income to make this household work, I’m ready to go back.
Now this little girl is the bees knees. I mean she really makes me laugh every day. I just want to eat her thick little thighs up and I wish she would sit still enough to let me just rock her and sniff her neck all day.
But, I also get tired – emotionally and physically – from becoming an insta-mom. I love watching this girl, and most days we have an awesome time hanging out. But when she is in one of her whiny moods, like yesterday, I can’t wait for Wood to come home to take the next shift.
Since I know this our days at home are not permanent, I don’t have a true plan. I don’t have crafts set up for us to do, or a specific curriculum. I actually think I could be great at this homeschooling thing, with a plan. But without one, the day just gets away from us.
Wood loves it though. He loves coming home to both of us. He loves coming home to clothes washed and food cooked. And honestly, I love when he comes to the door and Nana gets all excited. I’m happy that he seems so content with his life and that just being a family is making him so happy.
So this transition into Nana going to daycare will be interesting. We are planning to start her tomorrow, and perhaps I can go back to work full-time on Thursday.